this is not the dubiouslog

wtf is my memory that bad

( April 28, 2010 - 9:05 pm, filed under artworks, websites, tagged as , , , )

apparently I sent the application for the Mewtwo fanlisting not only to The Fanlistings but also to The Anime Fanlistings.
because I just got the approval to make the fanlisting to the anime version of the character.

let me spell it out: I’ve been waiting for this moment since 2006
AND I DIDN’T EVEN REMEMBER I APPLIED FOR IT

WTF, SELF.

The point is that, since I thought I had already been rejected, I also applied for Sableye and got approved for it. Now, you must know that I like to make shrines which also incorporate a fanlisting so that the ones looking for the shrine will also have the chance to join the fanlisting and the ones looking for the fanlisting will find much more content than expected. So, my idea was (and still is) to make a Sableye shrine as my submission to the Pokéthon.

As for Mewtwo, in the past I said that there was no need for me to make another Mewtwo shrine since I couldn’t add anything worthy to what other people wrote, and I still think it’s true. However, this works in the case of a text-based tribute. All I need to do is changing perspective. So, I’m going to make an illustrated tribute to the character of Mewtwo. Think of the possibilities. It will be a big project, but I think I can pull it off. Long story short, if I manage to finish both websites in a month and half I can submit not one, but two shrines to the Pokéthon. 8D Let’s see what I can do.

Lately I’ve been doodling a lot with friends on IM and discovered that drawing with the mouse is fun. So, have some stupid fan art. Irene, I’m blaming you for these.

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interesting uses of that dangling belt #1 - drunk piggyback rides

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interesting uses of that dangling belt #2 - cruel and unusual punishment

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interesting uses of that dangling belt #3 - musical instrument

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interesting uses of that dangling belt #4 - catapult

HERE WE GO

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a fanlisting for a flash game = new levels of nerdiness

( April 26, 2010 - 7:07 pm, filed under hall of changes, videogames )

I spent the last three days making a fanlisting for the flash game Luminara. I’m dead serious.

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A tale of rebellious bikes

( April 23, 2010 - 1:21 pm, filed under meanwhile, irl, tagged as , )

So, yesterday I decided that I had spent way too much time sitting behind a laptop, yet I was lacking a good reason to get out of the house. Other than training my Pokémon, but just walking around with nowhere to go is even more boring than sitting on my ass. Then I remembered about my sister’s old bike which she doesn’t use anymore since my parents bought her a bigger one. Good. So I went to check on it and wash it and this sort of things. I tried it, and it looked in pretty good shape.

Things took an unexpected turn when I was riding down a slope at considerable speed and heard a weird metallic noise from the rear wheel. I braked to check on that; what I couldn’t know was that the problem was exactly the rear brake. It doesn’t take a fervid imagination to imagine what happened next. The second after braking, I was flung into the air for a few meters and then into the ground. After that, I realized my glasses were sent flying off my face as well and were now lying broken a meter away from me. Then I noticed I couldn’t move my right arm. My first reaction was to go wtf at what just happened because seriously, I get on a bike for no more than five minutes and I end up breaking my glasses and an arm? Then I noticed that the arm didn’t hurt a lot and that I could more or less move it, albeit the elbow felt weirdly loose compared to the other one. I guess it was just a momentary shock thing.

A passerby helped me get back up and seeing my backwards arm suggested to bring me to the hospital. Haha, if I can still turn it like that it definitely means it’s fine. I retrieved what was left of my glasses, brought that stupid bike back and waited for my parents to get back to see what could be done with those glasses. In the meanwhile, I experienced the world of Very Bad Myopia and almost disinfected my wounds with pure alcool because I couldn’t tell the bottles apart. Lucky me they have a different smell.

When my mom got back she brought me to see what could be done for the glasses. The optician was very nice, he kept his shop open past after the closing time only to fix my glasses :D in the end I got a new pair which also looks nicer than the one I had before and won’t break that easily. My arm doesn’t hurt anymore and my wounds are nothing terrible.

What I learned yesterday:

  • I am more or less unbreakable.
  • My glasses, however, are not.
  • I am lucky that glasses have already been invented because without them I wouldn’t be able to see my own feet.
  • There are some pretty nice people around.
  • I could as well be riding a donkey.

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iMelt

( April 21, 2010 - 7:15 pm, filed under artworks, tagged as , , )

this entry is about things which will melt your heart

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and don’t pretend you can’t hear me

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after the initial shock, he came to appreciate it

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after the first time, Daevion kept appearing in my dreams to teach me how to control them :D

I really don’t feel like writing today

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feefahon

( April 19, 2010 - 12:09 am, filed under hall of changes, tagged as , )

you know what’s amazing? my consistency is amazing. I just remade a website which wasn’t even on my last to-do list.
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well I’m way more pleased with it now. the layout uses the same concept as before, just that now it’s an actual layout instead of a blue background with a pic on it. also, as the banner should show, now the website is no longer just a fanlisting, it’s a fanlisting with a one-page tribute in which I make a series of somewhat weird yet perfectly reasonable deductions while still managing to spam a sexy picture of Spenser with his sexy Fearow. EVERYBODY WINS

Seriously though, I really like that pic because of the way Spenser’s left leg is still completely legible beneath his pants. Interesting Fact about me: I have a fetish for wrinkles in clothing, especially pants. Once I was in a train and there was this hot young man sitting in front of me and all I could do was staring at his crotch because of the wrinkles in his jeans. 8D

anyway, after this I’m going to finish revamping the weasels fanlisting, the finished site has been sitting there for something like five days because I didn’t feel like drawing the top image and then I ended up working on Soaring Dread because I’m stupid.

(why do I always try to save the draft on wordpress with ctrl-s?!)

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Avantgarde and something more

( April 12, 2010 - 4:23 pm, filed under artworks, tagged as , )

Okay, I lied when I said “tomorrow”. Actually, the drawings from the dream are still a work in progress. Instead, yesterday I drew some pics of my Pokémon Soul Silver team and some other stuff. Half of these drawings are currently being painted, so normally I’d wait for all of them to be finished before posting them, but:

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I like these so much I cannot wait any longer to post them. This is Avantgarde, my female Scizor. The scan on the right shows the full A5 page; the left pic is the one I’m going to post in my artfolio and in other places. It was fun to try out a new watercolor technique.

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Quartz likes to climb on my head. He’s so cute I don’t have the heart to ask him to walk on his own feet. Besides, he’s not really that heavy.
I just fell in love with Sableye.

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What is this? This is my very first original character. His name is Dodo and I made him up when I was four or five. He was twelve years old and a cool and nice guy all around, he had many friends and he was always happy. He was also my imaginary friend, even though I never, ever drew him and his gang with me because I felt like we belonged to different universes (see? I had this idea even when I was FOUR). Anyway. Why this drawing? Well, yesterday my mom saw me sketching and brought up the fact she found some old drawings of him in a book, so she wanted me to draw him again. I was greatly amused by the fact these old doodles were also ridiculously tiny…yes, smaller than a finger. So, now I can say with certainty that my drawings have always been unusually small. I wonder why, though.

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Other than those old characters, I currently have only one original character that’s based on an animal, which would be Sheila the fennec fox. After drawing Dodo I wanted to show her to my mom, but I didn’t feel like making her come all the way to the laptop to see a scan, so I just sketched her like this. The scanner then killed parts of the lineart, so I helped her with some digital color.

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And this is me as a Pokémon Trainer. This time I checked the actual outfit before drawing it, so it’s more accurate than the other pics. YES THE ARM IS TURNED AT A WRONG ANGLE BECAUSE THAT’S THE WAY MY ARM IS SO THIS IS ACTUAL ANATOMY!!!
lol, I should take some pictures cosplaying as myself. Maybe when my Argonian name is no longer Bleeds-On-Chairs.

I should make some stuff for people too

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Spontaneously weaving stories

( April 8, 2010 - 11:40 pm, filed under meanwhile, irl, tagged as , , )

Yesterday, I was about to have a dream involving Daevion (who, for those who are synthonizing right now on this station, is one of my original characters and the one I’m fondest of). Too bad my mom had to wake me up before really getting to do anything; the last thing I saw was his face very close to mine; “I will be back soon”, he whispered.

He kept his word. This morning, I had the most incredible dream of my life.

It began in one of those beautiful roads in the woods, like those where are filmed tv spots for cars and the like. And I was no car and there was no one else around, but I was going to a place in these woods where I would have met someone interesting. So, I glided on the asphalt to reach my destination. For some reason I touched my right boob, and it fell off. Right. I managed to recover it, but at that point it was no longer a boob, but a very large yellow balloon and I couldn’t even push it under the shirt to begin with. Well, whatever, silly balloon boob. I just let it fly away and kept going where I was going. The boob grew back in place as I was flying, so that weird amazon feeling didn’t last too long.

I reached this hole in the road that was more or less shaped like a vagina, with the inner part being rock walls. The walls were six or seven meters tall. They looked fake, like they were made in papier-mache. Other than just looking fake they were also purple, so well, I guess it was more than an impression. Perched on the wall there was a man who began to give me chase as soon as he noticed my presence. I thought he was going to rape me or something like that.I began climbing the wall with him following me. In the beginning he didn’t really have any recognizable facial features except of looking sort of like a Gligar, but as he kept trying to catch me he gained more and more details until I realized who he was.
Daevion.

The walls and the hole disappeared and we were now standing on the road. He said something, but I wasn’t listening because I was too amazed by the fact he was actually there and that, if everything would have gone well, I would have had my chance to spend some time with him. I mean, it was like meeting that actor you’re obsessed with on your way home. Except that Daevion is imaginary, so it’s not like I will ever be able to see him when awake.

“I told you I would have been back, didn’t I?” He said, smiling “I realize how incredible all of this must be for you right now, and I don’t want to kill the moment, but always keep in mind that everything in this dream is a product of your imagination. Me included. So, anything could happen from here now”.
“Don’t go. Not this soon”.
“Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere for a while”.

Then Alice appeared. Yes, the one from Alice in Wonderland. The fact that I’ve seen the movie very recently may have something to do with that, but still. She said she fell into my head and had to slay several monsters created by my imagination to get out, and she needed help. Daevion and I agreed to help. The first monster was found near a sea, so we began walking.

During the journey, Alice turned out to be pretty talkative and seemed to get along with Daevion. I lacked her verve, so I felt kind of left out and a bit jealous, although it was nice only listening to Daevion talk because he had such a deep, soothing voice. After a while we reached a shack by the sea, and we got in to ask for food before the battle. Inside the shack there were a lot of people eating together around a large wooden table, among which the Mad Hatter, a baby and Sheila. I went straight to the Mad Hatter and whispered to him in the ear to please flirt with Alice or something of the sorts because I didn’t want her to interact with Daevion in my place, and he was glad to help. Anyway, we sit at the table and talk and such. Sheila, who in this dream was a mercenary (she was wearing an army uniform, which looked rather nice on her), offered to give her help for Alice’s quest.

After that, the Hatter brought everybody to have some fun at the Stairs Waterfalls. These were a set of yellow stairs as tall as a building with each step being tall like a person with water flowing from the top. The baby fell down the stairs, but no one seemed to care. Everyone had fun playing on these huge steps in the water.

In the end, Alice, Sheila, Daevion and I went to the shore to fight the first monster. A huge half-mecha octopus rose from the green sea into the red sky. Alice was terrified by it, she said I had a sick imagination or something like that. I must say, I actually liked that thing, it had all those steel tentacles and looked pretty badass. Daevion told me to remember that, in the same way I created this thing, we could also destroy it with my help, but did I want to destroy something that I thought to be so awesome? Even though I didn’t really want to I ended up agreeing, so Sheila called some buddies on helicopters and everyone took down the mecha octopus. After the battle, I remember pointing to a huge moon that appeared in the sky and Daevion said that it was the least I could do, leaving me puzzled.

So, everyone went to do whatever they pleased, so Daevion brought me to a beautiful balcony with these white cubes where to sit on and a white city underneath it. We finally began to talk.

“The only one missing in this dream is Hydride, it seems” I said to break the ice.
“Maybe he’s the final boss”.
“It would fit with him, true”. Awkward silence. “There is something I wanted to ask you”.
“Let’s hear”.
“I was wondering how you feel knowing to be my creation…if the treatment I give you is fair. It’s something that has been bothering me for a while now”.
“I am part of your mind”, he answered, “and as such, I feel flattered that among your many creations you hold me in such a special place. You don’t have to worry about me, your worries are enough on their own”.
“So you don’t feel treated like a toy?”.
“Do I look unhappy about this right now? You don’t have to worry. You already have enough problems with other people, so I want for you to always feel at your ease with me, as a part of yourself. Solving your own problems is not going to be easy, but at least you can fall back on your imaginary world - and on me. But don’t forget to live in the real world just because I’m here”.

I hugged him so tight and his hair felt like feathers. Then he pointed at the sky: there were several giant full moons. “See? This is what you’re capable of doing!”. He stood up, grabbed me by the ankles and lifted me above his head spinning and laughing, which terrified me because my head was now at about four meters from the ground and it was too much - yet he kept laughing,lifting me even higher. I began to scream, then I fainted from the fear. During that time, I wasn’t really completely unconscious; it was more like when you’re about to fall asleep and you see pictures behind your eyelids. I feared I was about to wake up, so I screamed his name on the top of my lungs, so loud I thought I had screamed outside of the dream and that people had heard me.

When I got back, Daevion was still there. “Why, welcome back! I thought you were actually going to wake up. Glad to see you’re still here”. We began to walk, then something hit me on the back of the head and I fell unconscious.

I woke up in a bunker. There was a female furry character with her fur completely black, the head of a bear and eyes and mouth which were actually holes filled with ropes of slime. She had a machine gun, and commanded me to move on. Then her mate arrived - it was a young man with a gracile body, dirty, shoulder-length brown hair and a very pointy nose. “You look cute” I said “It’s weird that I created you to be like this”. He then turned over, looked at the girl and they both cursed, saying they got the wrong person. So they let me go out, where Daevion was waiting for me. But I felt my time was over, so I said him goodbye and thanked him for everything.

Tomorrow I’m going to draw the scenarios and characters I saw in this dream to fix them forever.

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Let me show you my…ah, fuck it.

( April 2, 2010 - 4:12 pm, filed under videogames, tagged as , )

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currently in Mahogany, team around lv. 24-28
the Sandslash in the photo is a girl, and her name is Synthsand.

Yesterday I had an incredible meeting. Entei appeared in the Route before Olivine…
just in the same spot where I met it for the first time ten years ago.

I couldn’t believe my eyes. And the music, oh the music.
These games give me such a great joy.

Now I have to go to the Lake of Rage, where I will meet Lance. It’s a return to birth. You’re going to see a lot of Pokémon drawings in the next weeks.

Anyway, I think I’m falling in love with Sableye. I always liked it, but never considered training one up until now, and Quartz is so adorable it’s wrong. All of you “it’s weak! just choose another Pokémon!” should just fuck off.

Have a Pokémon meme I stole from Kayla.

I love these memes

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