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1. DP166
2. Everyone gave me very beautiful and meaningful presents
3. I just found out there is a demo from the new album from Thurisaz and it’s so amazing I actually came

I accidentally exploded in front of the computer.

Edit (and a spoiler)

Irene, listen to this! :3

I blame the ep for finding myself singing Chiisaki Mono.

I just watched the ep. The one with Volkner and Flint. I’m sweated, shaking all over, I still see the pictures behind my eyes.
It was so beautiful. They were just as I always imagined them to be. Their story was the one I imagined for them. Their voices were just as I expected them to be. Even the way the moved.

Continues under here, spoilers

Quote from Volkner in Pokémon Platinum:
“My relationship to Flint? There’s no love lost, that’s for sure.”

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THUS MAKING THEIR PAIRING CANON. END OF THE STORY
I am as amazed as you, believe me

hey I’ve not been giving those two enough attention as of lately
I gotta fix that

Today I saw VG again after all these months. I was looking forward to this day with excitement. I’m very happy to be with him again.
However, this is not what this entry is about.

After he left in train, I was to take the subway home. I was getting down the stairs when, about ten metres away from me, I saw a man tripping on an elderly beggar. The latter fell over and since he looked rather fragile I thought he could have gotten something broken, but then the man who tripped on him refused to help him and began yelling all sorts of obscenities, basically calling the beggar a human scum and a waste of existence. The thing went on for at least a few minutes, then the elder tried to defend himself saying he would have called the police or something, at which the other replied threatening him; then he went away.

As for me, I was frozen there for the whole time. I would have really said something to that horrible person, but what if he turned violent? I was feeling weak for all the walking and the hot weather, and that man was twice my size. I feel a bit angry for not being able to do anything useful, but I keep telling myself that after all it’s not my fault if I wasn’t feeling good; were I in my usual shape, I would have had nothing to fear. I expected someone else to defend the beggar, but all the other people kept walking like nothing was happening - if something, they were speeding up. No one else seemed to care.

And this may feel like a rhetorical question, but seriously: what’s wrong with people? Seriously.

How is it possible that a man who can make this
can also make these?

They’re the ugliest official artworks I’ve ever seen. All those unflattering angles and ugly colors. Aipom and Smeargle look like someone’s tickling their butts. Teddiursa just barfed. Delibird is now a nazi. And don’t let me start about Tyrogue and Miltank. Beautiful Pokémon such as Skarmory or Scizor got completely botched up. What bothers me most is that this was the 1999 artwork for Porygon2. Now.

Why.

30+ IN CONTEMPORARY ART HISTORY FUCK YEAH. Especially because much of this success was determined by me making a large painting inspired from the work of Francis Bacon. The teacher was so impressed he even gave me a free book. So apparently my childish and anatomically impossible drawings are worth a 30+ and a free book. In your ass. :>

Even though I shouldn’t be taking such people too seriously, maybe I should really try and write down my views on art, especially as to why I deliberately choose to draw roughly and mostly ignoring anatomy. It’s not like I’m not able to make beautiful realistic drawings, you know. I just found a bunch of old stuff including a self-portrait I drew at fifteen and man, it does look nice. I’ll be scanning all that old stuff from 2004-2005 - those drawings that got lost with the HD failure and some which went lost ages before that (including the Sneasel pic who graced the very first layout of Angeltower Page). I’m also rescanning my old Pokémon comic whose pages seem to be currently located in the dark side of the interwebs - I even found some unpublished pages, so you may be in for a surprise.

And talking about comics, I’d really like to make another Pokémon comic. I’ve already been planning it out. It will be a comic divided in three or four short episodes each one focusing on a different aspect of the relationship between Pokémon and people.
The first one will take place before Pokémon and people became two different species and it will be about a little girl and his grampa. The old man discovers he can keep his niece’s life energy in a ball he created out of an Apricorn, so they play together with this toy - except that, with the passing of time, the old man becomes more and more scared of his child outgrowing their game, and ends up becoming eerily obsessive…
The second one will take place in the present and will be about a Trainer and a Fearow who fall in love for each other, thus compromising the whole training system and posing some interesting question on their relationship.
The third one will be about a “real world” girl playing Pokémon and getting emotionally attached to the creatures.
I do seem to have a predilection for real weird stuff. In case you were asking. :P

Also, I just got approved for the making of the Fearow fanlisting! Yeah Fearow. It took me a whole ten years to understand its greatness |D Sneasel is sticking to the position of favorite Pokémon ever, then Mewtwo, Porygon-Z and Fearow in no particular order. The fanlisting’s name will be Soaring Dread and it will feature an illustration of mine in the layout. I PROMISE IT’S GOING TO LOOK NICE

As for the new Hall of Changes layout I changed idea three times, then got what looks like my best layout ever. It looks so awesome that I cannot believe it was me to create it. It will feature Samus and the Orion Nebula! What can possibly go wrong? :D

Anyway, this post was really about…ME SINGING KAZE TO ISSHO NI. DUN DUN DUUUN. I would have posted Niji ga Umareta Hi too but the laptop mic wouldn’t record the high-pitched scream at the end which was supposed to show my leet singing skillz. Hahaha. As you will have understood by now, the recording is quite low-quality, but I’m so awesome so it should not be a problem. SARCASM.
Here’s the recording. My voice does sound weird in places but that’s because by the “ikutsomono deai, ikutsumono wakare” I was crying like a baby. Kaze to Issho Ni always gets to me. :<

Let me end this entry with my latest weird dream. Involving me saving a beautiful woman with long fair hair by a number of weird situations throughout some really colorful and detailed worlds. And having hot sex with her afterwards. Ten times. And because this dream was half-lucid, I could make her boobs larger whenever I wanted to. My dreams are, indeed, better than yours. Live with it. XD

Stuff is going on, but there’s not much to be said right now. I’m working on Blind Dreaming’s new index, Advanced Blanked’s layout (which is apparently turning out very fine), a fanlisting for weasels, stuff for Dark Claws, some new artworks and an animation exam. I’ll let you see later.

In the meanwhile, some interesting stuff. I have just discovered about the existence of fractal music; check this out. I’ve searched the web for more but any site I’ve found is either long dead or has midi files which I can’t listen to, so if you happen to be interested in this kind of stuff you’ll have to google it yourself.

The same person who composed that piece I’ve linked to also runs a very interesting webcomic called Dreaming of Eden. Top-notch stuff, if you ask me; sounds a lot like Mewtwo in Myuutsuu no Gyakushuu. Listen to that piece of fractal music while reading this webcomic, it will all make more sense. Too bad it seems to be discontinued.