dubiouslog

People look for stuff on the Internet all the time. If you own a website, some of these searches are bound to bring them to your pages. Sometimes, hilariously so.
A collection of keywords used from people to reach blind-dreaming.net to boggle your mind. Don’t be bothered to look them up, some of these are from some time ago and may not lead you to my websites anymore.

1. cynthia’s boobs pokémon
   I am deeply disappointed that an image search of this query doesn’t return a page full of shots of her disembodied boobs.
2. fearow beautiful
   fearow good
   fearow competitive
   These must all be from the same person…
3. fearow porn
   …Oh. I see.
4. hate is a strong word but man some people suck
   The fun fact is that I never pronounced that phrase, but hell, I agree.
5. i will be a super girl
   ★ Keep believing! ★
6. piplup butt
   The receiving end of Fearow porn?
7. pokemon platinum volkner and flint gay?
   That’s a legitimate question. You’ve come in the right place.
8. pokemon sneasel photos
   …now now now wait a minute.
9. hairy green fruit
   Green? Nope, sorry.
10. flies are to be lured with honey, not vinegar
    they’re best served with apples and plums
11. sneasel i love you
    I love you too!
12. sneasel sex story
    ok that’s not the kind of love I meant. Fearow guyyyyyy
13. genderbend samus
    Something I should really draw.

My laptop is still dead. :<

inappropriate candy packaging is very inappropriate and wrong on so many levels

holy shit. now I have to get used to not thinking about 1910 every time I read ‘10. anyway, happy new year.

Here, have a look at something hilarious (especially for Irene):

“Rotowash - a lot more than what it says [on the package]”
At least they’re being honest about it.

and what about the end of year meme?

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
   One thing in particular comes to mind. /8)
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
   NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTIONS ARE FOR WIMPS
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
   My cousin Valeria had a baby in March. Man, the other day she was doing her high school homework with that weird blue drawing or what was it and now she’s a married woman with a child!
   …so the other day may be fifteen years ago, but! but!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
   No.
5. What countries did you visit?
   No foreign countries, again. Not even Switzerland. Boo.
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
   Sanity. D:
7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
   I don’t know. I’m not one for remembering dates anyway.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
   Putting my gallery and my collective online after a two year hiatus.
9. What was your biggest failure?
   Not being by Jacopo’s side when he needed me the most. 8<
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
    The swine flu, and this summer I had these bruises under the armpits which hurted quite a lot. Weird stuff.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
    Probably that Isaac Clarke figure. So beautiful.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
    ?
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
    Appalled and depressed? There are two persons I could name. I won’t, though.
14. Where did most of your money go?
    Towards my rather sucky attempts at not starving to death.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
    A few videogames, a few exams, but usually I don’t get very excited about stuff.
16. What songs will always remind you of 2009?
    What should I know! Stop making these silly questions!
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
    i) happier or sadder?
    Not happier or sadder, but probably more at peace, yes.
    ii) thinner or fatter?
    thinner, see 14. :<
    iii) richer or poorer?
    I don’t know.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
    Caring about important stuff instead of losing my time.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
    Less procrastination is always good, although I’ve been getting a lot of things done as of lately.
20. How will you be spending the holidays?
    Or what remains of them - a few more days with Jacopo, then back to work
21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
    Jacopo.
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
    ?
23. How many one night stands?
    you must mean “staying up all night without sleeping”, for sure. About seven.
24. What were your favorite TV programs?
    what’s this tee-vee
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
    Hate is a strong word, but I’d gladly kick some people unconscious and throw them in a dark alley if I was given the chance to.
26. What was the best book you read?
    oh my, I didn’t read anything at all this year!
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
    The album Circadian Rhythm by Thurisaz. It’s the soundtrack to my life.
28. What did you want and get?
    A camera 8)
29. What did you want and not get?
    There was this pretty Cammy figure in this shop, and it was display only! how dare they tease me!
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
    Probably Tonari no Totoro, though it’s not really “of this year”.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
    I turned 19. I don’t remember anything else. Probably I went to eat out with Jacopo or something of the sorts.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
    Not having all those problems with him :<
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
    One day I went to school with wires and cables all over me and it was awesome! I was a cyborg!
34. What kept you sane?
    Nothing kept me sane. So I went insane
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
    who wrote this
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
    I try to not get too angry over being under a dictature and not being able to do anything about it, but…
37. Who did you miss?
    My parents. And Cercatesori. I need to meet you soon :(
38. Who was the best new person you met?
    Roserade, Flare, Maze, Amy, Light_Eevee, am I forgetting someone?
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
    You are not always right. You are not always nice. Sometimes you’re wrong, and a bitch. Learn to pick up the signs.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
    nah

I’ve spent these last few days at Jacopo’s for his birthday. We had an awesome time. Originally, this entry was about what kind of awesome time did we have, but then I noticed that I just can’t blog about my life. It makes me feel stupid. Long story short, we had an awesome time. 8)

Hey look I drew a me. It should be my Pokémon Trainer but really, it’s me. I blame Kate for that.

as ridiculous as it may seem, it’s actually a very accurate representation of my person. which also explains why I tend to draw people with weird anatomy when I have no one who can model for me: my whole body is double-jointed. and yes, I can actually do that with my tongue.
THE TIME HAS COME FOR ME TO EMBRACE MY FREAKINESS

Last night I had some weird dream. Basically, I was with Jacopo in a medieval city; after visiting a few places, we entered a tree. The inside of the tree was some sort of dark world completely secluded from the outside, which gave us an idea about how to use that to our advantage. You know what happens next. In the middle of it, something happened. When we got out, I realized that from midway to the end I’ve been doing it with Daevion. Then he kidnapped me. Random people tried to rescue me, but Daevion casted all sorts of spells on them and they went away. Jacopo was outside too, and he said that I had to choose between Daevion and him. I answered that he only exists in my imagination, so it was not like I was cheating on him. He said that’s ok, but since we were in my subconscious he was actually real there!
…I’m not sure what does this all mean D: though I was really waiting for Daevion to appear in a dream, I did not want for it to be like this D8 also I’m sort of disappointed that this was such a blurry dream and that I couldn’t get a good look at his face. I wish I could get lucid dreams at will.

One year ago I opened this weblog, so…happy birthday, I guess?

I also just noticed the number of artworks I’ve been posting here since then. Take a guess. 50? 100?
181.
Holy shit.

Anyway, I stole a meme from Kate. These song memes are just so hilarious, with their silly questions. Anyway, it’s one of those memes in which you put your playlist on shuffle (in my case, my whole library) and then every song is the answer to a question.

1. Where do you live: The Enemy (Dark Tranquillity)
   I live with my enemies! …sadly, that’s actually true. :(
2. Describe your first love: La Tregua (Klimt 1918)
   A truce from the ugliness of it all. Is it true, Jacopo?
3. What is your favorite thing to do: Haven (Dark Tranquillity)
   I love to invite the darkside in, into my haven. It somehow fits.
4. Describe your current love: The Promise (Within Temptation)
   Fuck, that song is about a lover dying D:
5. What do you like to wear: Astronomy Domine (Pink Floyd)
   I wear stars and planets, uh uh uh uh uh
6. What is your challenge: Keep the Car Running (Arcade Fire)
   and it’s quite a challenge considering that I can’t drive
7. Who are your friends: Sunset Coast (Rayman M Soundtrack)
   Are my friends characters from the Rayman universe? That would almost make sense.
8. Describe how you look: Destroyed (Within Temptation)
   LOLOLOLOLOLOL
9. What did you do last night: Midway Through Infinity (Dark Tranquillity)
   That’s a pretty close guess.
10. What is your goal in life: The Canyon Behind Her (Dredg)
    But I already found the other half. Or does it mean that I should fall into a canyon?
11. What do you do when you’re angry: Forever (Stratovarius)
    I stay angry forever. Which is also why I never get angry.
12. When do you have sex: Lance Battle (Pokémon Soundtrack)
    But I don’t even like Lance anymore.
13. How do you want to die: Cold (Lacuna Coil)
    Hypothermia D:
14. What do you say to your parents: The Howling (Within Temptation)
    Hey mom! Hey dad! AWOOOOOOOOOO
15. Where do you hang out: Heroes to Us (Kalmah)
    I hang out wherever the heroes are.
16. What do you think of society: Paradise Lost (Metal Gear Solid 4 Soundtrack)
    Makes a lot of sense.
17. Describe your most recent heartbreak: Indifferent Suns (Dark Tranquillity)
    He just didn’t care.
18. What is your excuse for everything: My Wings (Lacuna Coil)
    I couldn’t call back because of my wings. Yeah that will work.
19. What are your thoughts on a Friday evening: Revolvers (Hearts of Black Science)
    I will kill you all on a Friday evening
20. What is your unanswered question about life: Mother Brain (Super Metroid Soundtrack)
    Is it gone forever?
21. What is your favorite color: Cassiopeia (Dragonland)
    I’d like that question to be asked more often only to answer with something completely unrelated, like this.
22. What is your advice to those less experienced: Survive (Lacuna Coil)
    The best piece of advice ever.
23. What would you rather do right now: Laughing Octopus (Metal Gear Solid 4 Soundtrack)
    Just…no. Google her name. D:
24. Describe your best friend: Viva Violent Fellow (ONE OK ROCK)
    hahahahahaha
25. What’s under your bed: Fall of the Hammer (The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion Soundtrack)
    This is the theme of the random encounter with a monster, so I guess it’s time to check what are the dust bunnies up to.
26. What is your most prized possession: Symbols (Thurisaz)
    ???
27. Where will be your honeymoon: Under a Glass Moon (Dream Theater)
    So ~romantic~
28. What is on your to-do list: Cry for Eternity (Dragonforce)
    It would be fun, though.
29. Where would you rather be: Gemstone Temple (Rayman M Soundtrack)
    A nice place where to be.

Notice anything new? :D It was time to upgrade that logo. This one spawned from a talk I had with VG in which I asked him whether I was needing a catchphrase, and he came out with this streak of genius. Then I accidentally doodled a cute fennec. There.

Even though the logo change is actually related to those projects I was talking about earlier, I’m still not ready to write about them in detail. So, the rest of this entry is RANDOM

Current obsession: fennec foxes are too cute for words. When I finish with the university I want to move with VG and live with a fennec. I’m dead serious. I’ve never had the chance to live with an animal, but if I think about which one I’d choose, I wouldn’t take a dog because I’m just not a dog person, but I wouldn’t take a cat either because even though I like cats I don’t think a cat could ever tolerate being with me. If you think about it it makes a lot of sense. I’d never take any animal that must be kept in a cage because in my opinion that’s just sad, it’s about keeping a living thing like a possession, it’s not like actually sharing your time with another creature. Then I’ve read that fennecs are domesticable :O they say they are bright, playful and affectionate with people. They are the kind of animal that will cheer you up if they see you’re feeling down :3 and they’re quite intelligent too. I’ve read that a downside may be that they are nocturnal but haha, so am I. They’re perfect for me. I just have to wait a few years.

Silly professional deformation: you know you’ve spent too much time working with newfangled technologies when you are surprised by the lack of a text box in your suitcase to find your underpants without having to look for them manually. Even though it would be awesome.

Sudden Internet pet peeve: why is everyone using birds for logos? Birds are the image of freedom in its purest meaning. It breaks my heart to see them bastardized into a symbol of social network slavery.

30+ IN CONTEMPORARY ART HISTORY FUCK YEAH. Especially because much of this success was determined by me making a large painting inspired from the work of Francis Bacon. The teacher was so impressed he even gave me a free book. So apparently my childish and anatomically impossible drawings are worth a 30+ and a free book. In your ass. :>

Even though I shouldn’t be taking such people too seriously, maybe I should really try and write down my views on art, especially as to why I deliberately choose to draw roughly and mostly ignoring anatomy. It’s not like I’m not able to make beautiful realistic drawings, you know. I just found a bunch of old stuff including a self-portrait I drew at fifteen and man, it does look nice. I’ll be scanning all that old stuff from 2004-2005 - those drawings that got lost with the HD failure and some which went lost ages before that (including the Sneasel pic who graced the very first layout of Angeltower Page). I’m also rescanning my old Pokémon comic whose pages seem to be currently located in the dark side of the interwebs - I even found some unpublished pages, so you may be in for a surprise.

And talking about comics, I’d really like to make another Pokémon comic. I’ve already been planning it out. It will be a comic divided in three or four short episodes each one focusing on a different aspect of the relationship between Pokémon and people.
The first one will take place before Pokémon and people became two different species and it will be about a little girl and his grampa. The old man discovers he can keep his niece’s life energy in a ball he created out of an Apricorn, so they play together with this toy - except that, with the passing of time, the old man becomes more and more scared of his child outgrowing their game, and ends up becoming eerily obsessive…
The second one will take place in the present and will be about a Trainer and a Fearow who fall in love for each other, thus compromising the whole training system and posing some interesting question on their relationship.
The third one will be about a “real world” girl playing Pokémon and getting emotionally attached to the creatures.
I do seem to have a predilection for real weird stuff. In case you were asking. :P

Also, I just got approved for the making of the Fearow fanlisting! Yeah Fearow. It took me a whole ten years to understand its greatness |D Sneasel is sticking to the position of favorite Pokémon ever, then Mewtwo, Porygon-Z and Fearow in no particular order. The fanlisting’s name will be Soaring Dread and it will feature an illustration of mine in the layout. I PROMISE IT’S GOING TO LOOK NICE

As for the new Hall of Changes layout I changed idea three times, then got what looks like my best layout ever. It looks so awesome that I cannot believe it was me to create it. It will feature Samus and the Orion Nebula! What can possibly go wrong? :D

Anyway, this post was really about…ME SINGING KAZE TO ISSHO NI. DUN DUN DUUUN. I would have posted Niji ga Umareta Hi too but the laptop mic wouldn’t record the high-pitched scream at the end which was supposed to show my leet singing skillz. Hahaha. As you will have understood by now, the recording is quite low-quality, but I’m so awesome so it should not be a problem. SARCASM.
Here’s the recording. My voice does sound weird in places but that’s because by the “ikutsomono deai, ikutsumono wakare” I was crying like a baby. Kaze to Issho Ni always gets to me. :<

Let me end this entry with my latest weird dream. Involving me saving a beautiful woman with long fair hair by a number of weird situations throughout some really colorful and detailed worlds. And having hot sex with her afterwards. Ten times. And because this dream was half-lucid, I could make her boobs larger whenever I wanted to. My dreams are, indeed, better than yours. Live with it. XD

STOLEN FROM IRENE
except she only tackled the anime ops, but I’m an even bigger Pokémon dork than her so HAHAH NO IRENE JUST KIDDING, JUST KIDDING

Anime openings

5. Spurt! - It somehow remembers me of the early nineties’ anime openings, so energetic
4. Ready Go! - It makes me smile :) Also nice vocals
3. Together - Maybe a bit cheesy, but I still like the overall sound. Also the lyrics are so fun :D
2. Battle Frontier - I LOVE THIS SO MUCH and even more so in the Eiga Version (sorry, no Youtube link). I used to listen to it a lot a few years ago. I even remember a few rather embarrassing mishearing games with my sister 8′D
1. Mezase Pokémon Master ‘98 - I’m linking to the Myuutsuu no Gyakushuu version rather than the original anime opening because it’s the one I grew with. I love this to pieces, I know all the lyrics by heart, also Rica Matsumoto is friggin’ awesome.

Anime endings

5. Polka O Dolka - HILARIOUS. Also I love how they’re actually saying PORUKA O DORUKA
4. Gizamimi Pichu Song - I LIKE THE GIZAMIMI PICHU SONG. SO WHAT?
3. Nyaasu no Uta - SO CUTE.
2. Type: Wild! - Rica Matsumoto again! This song reminds me of Oli, wonder what she’s up to now. Also it begins with Kaze to Issho ni :D
1. Soko ni Sora ga Arukara - Try to deny it, this is beautiful.

Movie endings

I only like three of them.
3. Niji ga Umareta Hi - The singer is just so incredible. Also, once I managed to sing it! You may not know it, but I’m actually decent at singing. Maybe I should record myself singing this?
2. Chiisaki Mono - The vocals are amazing.
1. Kaze to Issho ni - In my opinion, the best Pokémon song ever. Wonderful lyrics, wonderful music. Also yes, the little girl singing is Ai. You have no idea how much I love this.

in-game palette except for two extra tones, pixelover is mostly accurate (Volkner’s eyes and chain are different, Flint has some extra details)

may make Spenser with Fearow later just for kicks, and maybe the Go-Rock Quads too? I had lots of fun with these, so if you’d like to see a pixelover of any official picture or of a fan art you made, go on and ask me, I’ve got some time to waste

Tonight I dreamt about a Platinum subquest involving Team Galactic looking for a rare gem and you as the main character had to unearth it before the commanders could. The gem was long, pink and hard. Then Flint came and rolled all the Galactic commanders and the ground they were standing on into a ball with his bare hands and took the gem. Volkner came too and asked him if he was sure he wanted to take that gem and Flint answered “yeah, as sure as the fact I fucked you today, so it’s 100% sure”

I don’t know what is my subconscious up to. What I do know now is the meaning of the term “brainfucking”.