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Spark Needle

( March 9, 2010 - 12:57 pm, filed under fanlistings, websites, tagged as , , )

It’s been more than a year since the first time I wrote in this weblog that I wanted to make a website revolving around Volkner and Flint from Pokémon. Today, that website is finally ready. Its name is Spark Needle, and is the largest shrine I’ve ever made.

Writing these lines give me an incredible feeling of accomplishment that can only be compared to the one I got when Angeltower’s Frozen Truth Version was released back in 2007, and it’s also a bit like reliving the day after the first kiss or after the first time making love. It also saddens me a bit that I will no longer have to nurture this website; I think it could be the same feeling a parent gets seeing their children growing up and leaving their house. It’s a mysterious thing.

Putting aside this emotional stuff for a moment, I can say that Spark Needle is my biggest feat yet, both on the personal and technical front.
With the death of Internet Explorer 6, the web is finally ready to bestow the true potential of PNG transparency and fixed backgrounds applied to elements other than <body>. Spark Needle’s layout features four types of fixed tiled backgrounds with the same pattern in different colors; when scrolling the page, the eye is tricked into believing the background is always the same with only the colors changing. The top looks very simple, but it features scrolling elements on a fixed background, and this is where trasparent-background PNGs come into play. The text on the navigation buttons has a trasparent background as well, and the hovers are pure CSS: there is no other part of the image, it’s just the background color changing into red. This makes the layout lighter and the coding cleaner.

For what concerns the content, the fact that there are 21 information pages should say everything. If gedit isn’t failing me, the total word count for all of these pages is around 14,000, and I was being concise. Other than a lot to read, there are also game pictures, artworks and screencaps from the anime.  308 screencaps, to be precise. Scary, I know.

Most of the fanstuff section has content you should have already seen if you’ve been following this weblog, but there are also some new things: two unpublished fan arts - which would be the suggestive fan arts I was talking about in my last artwork post, mind -, one short fan fic which is really about their friendship so you have no excuse not to read it, and 13 icons I made yesterday. There is also some submitted material :D

and now I can sit on my butt and feel accomplished.

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so tell me, are you lonely?

( February 28, 2010 - 7:32 am, filed under personal, websites, tagged as , )

I’m sorry! I can’t shut up about Volkner and Flint lately. Even though I can see how someone may want to smack me in the face just to make me stop, you have to understand that I’ve been through some very rough times as of lately and these guys somehow managed to give me the strength and to bring a smile to my face. I feel really thankful towards the people who were involved in the making of that episode, and I wish they could know to what extent their work affected my life.

Anyway, I’ve been spending these days working restlessly on the shrine to them. I missed working on a website so much. I never thought I’d ever say this, but when I’ll be finished I’m going to miss working on it as well. This website also made me rediscover one of my passions that I’ve been neglecting in these last few years: writing. How much time has passed since the last time I wrote a long page about something? And what about fan fictions? I don’t even know if people will read them, but at least I’ve had fun writing them, and I think I will keep writing fan fics for this website for a long time. And then I will make some fan comics, too. And at least one AMV; yesterday I’ve come across this song whose lyrics relate very much to their relationship for how I see it and I just have to make something with it. Right now the play count is at…138 D8 if you’re curious, the song is Emptier Still from Dark Tranquillity. One of their “lesser” songs, but I find it to be amazing. Anyway, I’d also like to animate something myself, but that could be too much for me. I should at least try, I don’t know. And then I want to make a figure with them, but I have no idea as for what I could use to make them. I suck at modelling stuff with water, but I’m good with wax-based materials…too bad that most of them never really dry and get covered in dust after a few days. If anyone out there knows what I could use…

I really hope for this website to attract the fans. I really want to exchange mails with other people following my same shipping, since I seem to be the only one caring here. :<

(no one needed this entry to begin with! what am I doing?)

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you talk too much

( January 31, 2010 - 8:54 pm, filed under personal, websites, tagged as , , , , )

I’ve been feeling really depressed as of lately. My housemates won’t let me use the table, so I cannot draw nothing but sketches on my legs, which means that I cannot make illustrations for school, which means that I’m behind with my classes, which means that I’m getting more and more worried. I really tried to draw on my legs, but my back acts up after about thirty minutes. I need to buy a foldable table, but I also need help to carry it home, and people is busy, not their fault.

I don’t want to be with my housemates anymore, they won’t understand that being sociophobic is not something I can overcome by just being with people, and even like this I’m not the talkative type anyway. They think I’m just being an asshole to them while I just don’t find anything to talk about with them. Plus, I don’t want to be in the same room with them because they’re always smoking, doing drugs or cooking smelly stuff. Strong smells make me sick. I need to move alone, but this takes time. Plus the laptop is still under repair so I can’t work on websites or talk with friends as often as I want, and without a computer I can’t look for houses either.

Plus I won’t be able to see Jacopo for another two weeks. :<

BUT BUT BUT

the ep with Volkner and Flint has been announced for February 25 and I’M SO HAPPY
I just want to see them together doing stuff and teasing each other and I want to hear their voices and asfghjkasdl
The best part is that I know that even if I find them to be a bit different from how I imagine them to be I’m not going to be disappointed :D I just have fun shipping them and love their characters, that’s it

This also comes at just the right time, since I was already planning to make a shrine for them. It’s about a whole year I’ve been wanting to make a website about them and I’ve been working on it behind the scenes, but I was never satisfied with the result. It never seemed to live up to my expectations, yet I wanted to make something for them SO badly. After all, they are the only shipping I ever supported.
Then there was something that gave me the kick I needed to get started and finish everything with a strict deadline…which happens to fall after February 25, so I’ll have enough time to make the layout with a screencap from the episode and put a screencap gallery online and and and 8D

Talking about shrines, I’ve been playing Riviera: The Promised Land again. The idea was to write down Serene’s lines and make a shrine to her, but while I was playing I discovered that my favorite character in that game is really Malice. So…expect something about her in the near future. She really is a very interesting character.
The website will be named “No Future” and the layout will use this wonderful artwork of her. I still have to decide if I want this website to be a shrine or a fanlisting plus shrine.

Have a meme. Stolen from Irene, but since she skipped some questions I looked for the original and answered to some of the ones she left out, then followed her template, then got bored.

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Cakes are lies

( October 24, 2009 - 2:53 pm, filed under artworks, blind dreaming, fanlistings, web designing, websites, tagged as , , )

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about what direction I’m taking in my personal development. When I think about it, my mind jumps to when I was nine and I made a drawing about how I saw myself in the future: taller, with boobs, and working as a comic artist. When I was a kid, it was more like a distant thought: “and one day, I’ll be publishing my own comics”. Now this goal is fully in my reach, and all I have to do is keeping those stories running and my technique sharp and sharper. However, when I was nine I had no idea I would have developed a plethora of other interests. I could have never seen myself entering the website-making scene, running Angeltower Page and later Blind Dreaming and studying the web and how it works. I’ve always loved videogames, but I would have never thought of gaming as becoming such an important part of my life. And I just didn’t care about finding someone to share my life with.
I expected my life to be a lot more linear. I could even say that my dream life was a lot less interesting or fulfilling than my current life. I’d like to work as a comic artist, sure, but also as an illustrator, a character designer, a web designer, a writer…Mostly freelancing and flying solo, of course. I might accept some very special group projects, but only if I feel like it.

Now, it comes by itself that if I want to work as a freelancer I’m going to need more exposure, and I think I know what to do in order to obtain it. First of all, I’m needing a proper portfolio and for all my personal websites to look their best. This leads me to the next point: currently, not all of my websites are up to my standards, both in terms of presentation and content. If I am to get in the spotlight I cannot allow my work to be just OK, it must be as close to perfect as possible.

This is the very foundation of a big project of renovation concerning all of my online work; it will span across several years so that I can focus on university work while I keep on with this project. Let’s break it down in steps.

Phase one

All of the phase one steps are not incredibly complex or time-consuming. They don’t need my full attention, so I can multitask between them and school work. This should be a rough guideline of my personal work from now to a year from now.

  1. Clear Bell renovation. It didn’t really made much sense to have a fanlisting with two pages of content, so I’m turning this website into a full Pokémon Crystal tribute which also hosts a fanlisting.
    I thought that would make a good starting point for my project for a few reasons. First, there’s no way the new content is ever turning stale and needing to be rewritten, since we’re talking about information for a game from 2001 and thus pretty static at this point. If I will ever have to touch the content again, it’s going to be for only minor revisions. Second, I still like the layout concept, so I’m not needing a complete redesign; all I will be doing is upgrading some minor details. Actually, most of the layout changes are already online, so if you check Clear Bell right now you’ll see what I mean. Third, my tribute will be targeted to retrogamers and nostalgics, but will also serve as a museum for the years to come.
    I’m currently writing the new content. It won’t be long before I put everything online, three weeks in the worst case.
  2. Remake the weasels fanlisting from scratch. There’s not a single thing that’s right about that website, from the name to the layout to the overall feel. Even with such a tormented development, there’s no excuse for that mess. Now, I happen to have a drypoint drawing of a weasel for school which should be on print on Monday; if the result is as good as I intended it to be, I will be using it for the layout. The new layout is going to be either white or in neutral tones. Also, I’d like to change the name of the website. I tried to find another one myself but the results were rather unsatisfactory. So I’d like to get some input from you readers. The winner gets a free artwork :B everyone can participate, it doesn’t matter if we don’t really talk that much.
  3. Minor layout changes in the Angeltower Dex. Like remaking the Poké Ball and the Great Ball in the respective styles with a proper 3D software or refining the content styling. I should also make a Master Ball style soon or later. Also, I’m going to upgrade everything to HGSS and rewrite parts of the core code.
  4. Minor layout changes in the Super Metroid and Fearow fanlistings. I’m not satisfied with some of the content styling in the Super Metroid fanlisting and I don’t quite like the navigation in the Fearow fanlisting, so I’m going to tweak them a bit. Nothing major, though.
  5. New layout for Dark Claws. That website has grown a lot over time, and the current layout is way too small and the content way too understyled to convey how big that website actually is. Plus the layout is also quite old (from late 2007 I think), so it was about time anyway. I’m going to keep the current red and grey color scheme, but with another artwork. Content is going to be fully revised and the URL structure changed. For example, sneasel/shrine.php?page=general-information will become sneasel/shrine/?page=general-information, because directories are cooler. Here we’re already talking about plans for stuff I will be working on about a year from now, so I don’t feel like I can already give more details than this.

The phase two steps are still a secret! I will be talking about them in due time. All I can say for now is that they are going to be the beefier part of the renovation project, each taking from several months to a whole year of effort. They will be about Advanced Blanket, Angeltower Page and the portfolio I was talking about before. :D

There’s also a great deal of work for other people I’m currently working on. I’ve been spending the last few months on the redesign of a website which should be ready in November or December, I will be making a whole CMS-based website which should take a good three months of work, and I’ll be probably working on another website too. There’s so much stuff to do, and I’m still without Internet D:

Now, for something different:

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wait, wait!

( August 16, 2009 - 11:52 pm, filed under advanced blanket, blind dreaming, websites, tagged as , )

I’m writing about my latest Oblivion adventures but it’s getting very long so I wanted to post this before.

First of all, Swampnova is closed because I shouldn’t be writing depressing stuff. Sad people should cheer themselves up, not mope on the Internet. I should know better than that, but these last few months have been nothing but an avalanche of bad decisions on my part.

Speaking of which, at least I’m considerate enough to not put my private life online, else I’d be feeling rather embarrassed now. Long story short, I’m back with VG again. I was wrong on him, he proved it, and I’m grateful to him for being able to forgive me.
Happily ever after, then? I sure hope so.

In the end, this summer went rather differently than planned, and as such I wasn’t able to work on that Pokémon comic, too bad. However, I think I may be remaking Advanced Blanket’s layout as soon as I can; even though the current one is only a few months old and is not that bad as for what concerns usability and presentation, it feels like it’s lacking something, like it doesn’t even begin to convey who I am. This comes as no surprise when I think of the period in which I worked on that layout, but anyway.
I already have some ideas for the redesign. The concept came to me in a flash a few days ago, it has to do with a huge top image…look, I’ll just post a sketch here:

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and this may be a thirty-seconds quickie made with the mouse in a Messenger window but it’s really pretty self-explanatory. I think it’s a very powerful image and it also gives a whole new meaning to the site name - Advanced Blanket, is this blanket nothing but our very skin? It’s also a very personal work and as such it can be easily recognized as mine. I think. I don’t know, it came to me in a flash and I was OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. THIS IS THE BEST IDEA EVER and while the way I pictured it in my head is probably way grander than the actual artwork I’ve yet to make I think the idea itself is just fine.

and another thing yet: I’m considering to open a webdesign blog. There are a lot of things I’ve always wanted to write which I never actually did because I felt like they just didn’t belong on this place, so I thought that maybe it would be better if I started a serious blog which would maybe gain its own userbase instead of boring my four readers to death with uninteresting stuff. What if the world has been deprived of my illuminating ideas because of these restraints? JUST THINK OF IT!
hahahahaha yeah I know, it’s just that I want to write about webdesign, I don’t have any stupid pretenses.

next post will have actual drawings! I promise

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Electivire, fucking your Pokémon since 2006

( June 23, 2009 - 1:20 pm, filed under fanlistings, hall of changes, none of the above, personal, random, websites, tagged as , , , , , )

30+ IN CONTEMPORARY ART HISTORY FUCK YEAH. Especially because much of this success was determined by me making a large painting inspired from the work of Francis Bacon. The teacher was so impressed he even gave me a free book. So apparently my childish and anatomically impossible drawings are worth a 30+ and a free book. In your ass. :>

Even though I shouldn’t be taking such people too seriously, maybe I should really try and write down my views on art, especially as to why I deliberately choose to draw roughly and mostly ignoring anatomy. It’s not like I’m not able to make beautiful realistic drawings, you know. I just found a bunch of old stuff including a self-portrait I drew at fifteen and man, it does look nice. I’ll be scanning all that old stuff from 2004-2005 - those drawings that got lost with the HD failure and some which went lost ages before that (including the Sneasel pic who graced the very first layout of Angeltower Page). I’m also rescanning my old Pokémon comic whose pages seem to be currently located in the dark side of the interwebs - I even found some unpublished pages, so you may be in for a surprise.

And talking about comics, I’d really like to make another Pokémon comic. I’ve already been planning it out. It will be a comic divided in three or four short episodes each one focusing on a different aspect of the relationship between Pokémon and people.
The first one will take place before Pokémon and people became two different species and it will be about a little girl and his grampa. The old man discovers he can keep his niece’s life energy in a ball he created out of an Apricorn, so they play together with this toy - except that, with the passing of time, the old man becomes more and more scared of his child outgrowing their game, and ends up becoming eerily obsessive…
The second one will take place in the present and will be about a Trainer and a Fearow who fall in love for each other, thus compromising the whole training system and posing some interesting question on their relationship.
The third one will be about a “real world” girl playing Pokémon and getting emotionally attached to the creatures.
I do seem to have a predilection for real weird stuff. In case you were asking. :P

Also, I just got approved for the making of the Fearow fanlisting! Yeah Fearow. It took me a whole ten years to understand its greatness |D Sneasel is sticking to the position of favorite Pokémon ever, then Mewtwo, Porygon-Z and Fearow in no particular order. The fanlisting’s name will be Soaring Dread and it will feature an illustration of mine in the layout. I PROMISE IT’S GOING TO LOOK NICE

As for the new Hall of Changes layout I changed idea three times, then got what looks like my best layout ever. It looks so awesome that I cannot believe it was me to create it. It will feature Samus and the Orion Nebula! What can possibly go wrong? :D

Anyway, this post was really about…ME SINGING KAZE TO ISSHO NI. DUN DUN DUUUN. I would have posted Niji ga Umareta Hi too but the laptop mic wouldn’t record the high-pitched scream at the end which was supposed to show my leet singing skillz. Hahaha. As you will have understood by now, the recording is quite low-quality, but I’m so awesome so it should not be a problem. SARCASM.
Here’s the recording. My voice does sound weird in places but that’s because by the “ikutsomono deai, ikutsumono wakare” I was crying like a baby. Kaze to Issho Ni always gets to me. :<

Let me end this entry with my latest weird dream. Involving me saving a beautiful woman with long fair hair by a number of weird situations throughout some really colorful and detailed worlds. And having hot sex with her afterwards. Ten times. And because this dream was half-lucid, I could make her boobs larger whenever I wanted to. My dreams are, indeed, better than yours. Live with it. XD

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to a meaningful sky

( June 10, 2009 - 9:31 pm, filed under artworks, blind dreaming, fanlistings, tagged as , , , , )

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Gift for PKergirl :) Again, game palette plus two more colors. I’m considering to make sprites out of some of my drawings, too :O these are so fun to make
As for Spenser with Fearow it’ll probably take some more time as the Ranger sprite palette utterly sucks and I’ll have to make a better one myself.

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For Majo, inspired by T. S. Eliot’s Waste Land; A3 size.

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Fun fact: this was actually supposed to fill a whole A4 sheet. I colored it and all, then went away; when I got back I noticed how out of proportion it was and cut away the lower half of the drawing. Also, her boobs weren’t large enough :|

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This looks so much better in real life, you can’t even imagine. Much more colorful, also here you can’t really see the detail of the green body feathers. Man, am I needing a decent scanner. Anyway, this means a lot to me. If you were asking: yes, the model is me - just with a different hair color.

As for my other projects: I’m making a fanlisting for Fearow :D how could I not notice how awesome it is for so many years. FEAROWWW
its name will be “Soaring Dread” and its layout will be sky blue with a drawing I’m going to make myself as there appears to be a shortage of decent Fearow pics

I’m also making a screenshot gallery for Dark Claws but it will take some time. I still have…five episodes and a movie to download. I should also get to buy the Sneasel TCG cards and the new plushies and figures, well, it’d help if I had a camera to begin with. I never noticed how little stuff I actually own until I had to move out two weeks ago; all my stuff could stay in two suitcases, two bags and two boxes, and it mostly was my Pokémon plushies and my art stuff. Unbelievable.

If you hadn’t noticed the note on Blind Dreaming’s index, I’m also making a new layout for the Hall of Changes. It’s going to have a huge top image on a dark carmine background and a reddish-gray content box. I still have to decide what I’m going to put in the top image though, but I think I’ll end up with Samus again or something Pokémon-related. It’s a fanlisting collective, after all, IT HAS TO DISPLAY MY OBSESSIONS

Also, I put online a little something on Blind Dreaming. Don’t ask if you don’t see nothing, it either means you’re not paying attention or you can’t just because of your screen. I don’t know, sometimes I have weird ideas.

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follow-up

( May 16, 2009 - 10:26 pm, filed under blind dreaming, tagged as )

Blind Dreaming has finally got a new index. Weird development process here too; in the beginning I thought to use the Sprouting Head pic, I changed idea a bazillion times and then ended up with the Sprouting Head anyway. Oh well. Hope it looks good now.

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of the “shouldn’t you be doing something else?” series

( May 12, 2009 - 12:42 pm, filed under advanced blanket, blind dreaming, fanlistings, websites, tagged as , )

so hey stuff was done!

The weasels fanlisting is up and running. Man, what a weird development process. I mindlessly finished the whole layout in a single day, sent the application, received the approval, decided I didn’t like neither the layout I made nor the name I gave it, left it hanging around for ten days and then re-made the whole fanlisting from scratch in a single day again. Well. At least now I actually like the result.

Also Dark Claws got updated twice in two weeks because of a very nice person sending me loads of Sneasel-related stuff. :D NOW TO GET THE NEW SNEASEL PLUSHIES AND FIGURES

Blind Dreaming’s new index’s only missing a decent artwork. I already made one but it ended up looking too sloppy and not very related to my usual themes anyway, so I’ll have to think better. I’ll let you know as soon as I’ll be finished.

Advanced Blanket’s in a very advanced (lol) stage of development. The layout is gray and yellow just like in the index page, but it ended up getting a cyber/steampunk feel to it, there’s rust and scratched metal and bolts everywhere. Also that dark yellow became more like dark yellowish-orange to match. Currently, it’s only missing the artwork - which will feature two female robots. Specifically, a cute household robot who wants to turn on a rebellious and transgressive robot which was deactivated and rotting in a dump. YOU KNOW WHERE THIS IS GOING, ISN’T IT. It seems that characters about to do something incredible and meaningful are a constant in my art. That and the theme of rebirth, too.
Other than that, I only have to make the banners and write the about me, which seems to always be the very last page I write in whatever project. Heh. I hate writing about me.

and now, I’ll be working on that damned animation exam

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Follow-up (plus not safe for grandma artworks)

( March 20, 2009 - 3:15 pm, filed under artworks, blind dreaming, tagged as , , )

As for the artfolio’s name, what do you think about Advanced Blanket? It comes from an engrish pic I’ve seen recently and it relates incredibly well to the website theme. After all, art is a sort of safety blanket for me, a lot like Linus’ one, only more advanced. Way to reference one of my favorite comics via a quirky-sounding name! :O Also, blankets are for beds, beds are for sleeping, sleeping is for dreaming, so maybe I’d need an advanced blanket to get some blind dreaming?

As for the Hall of Changes, I’ll try something with the Brinstar patterns I’ve been talking about in the previous post’s comments. Then I’ll make a picture of how it would look and I’ll post it here, and according to your opinions I’ll decide whether to upgrade the layout or not. Thank you for your suggestions. :)

Now, to that batch of PG13 drawings. All of them have sexual themes, nudity or both. If the idea of seeing young men hugging each other while naked makes you weep, then you’re either too young or too right-wing to be reading this weblog to begin with and shouldn’t be here at all. Not like I actually know any of the latter, but as a child I was told that if I misbehaved I would have received the visit of either the black wolf or the right-wing nut, and I’d like to stay safe.

These pictures are not safe for grandma. If your grandma is looking, please cover her eyes

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